Oct 31, 2014

Update 10-31-14

Greetings internet! Wouldn't ya' know it, im still alive! Doing science...
Though I haven't been doing MUCH lately, I have been doing something. Firstly, I gots myself a new Poll here on my website, you should check it out.
The question: "When do you think The Freaks of LampCord will be complete?"
That ones really more of a 'wait and see' type of poll, but its still a way to see what people's expectations are of you, and a way to test myself to see if I can work within a locked timeframe. With WtN I expected (originally) to be done in about a year, I was off... by a whole year... Anyway atleast now I have an idea of how long stopmotion films take for me to make. This knowledge is only really half beneficial to me since TFoL is going to be a "live action" film with very small amounts of stopmotion, maybe this means I could complete it sooner? Wait and see.

As of right now ive got 1 marionette completely finished and another one just needs to put some clothes on. Im thinking i'll be needing about 5 more marionettes to complete the "cast" of the film then I can move on to building the set. Singular.
In comic news, Intervals of Horrible Sanity Issue 1 is damn near complete, im just waitin on Dash's side-comic to fill the last 6 pages, then its off to print! Issue 2 is 100% written, planned and shaped out, and I have a few pages already finished.
When it comes to my first book project, NOTHING IS NORMAL, im a little bit slackin behind. Ive written a little bit more to it recently, gone over and revised the first parts, but the writing software im using doesn't do "pages" it counts it all as one really long page, and when you're writing for a book that becomes a bit of a challenge. So for now ive been jotting down ideas on paper but im holding off on the actual writing part until I can get something like Microsoft Word to help separate pages properly.
Also! I submitted a few pieces of writing-stuff to Klaus tehKurios' Uberector Magazine Issue 01! You should totally check it out cuz it features articles and comics both by and about some pretty great artists, writers, and filmmakers!

Oct 11, 2014

Why i havent started The Freaks of LampCord

The fun of creating films with Welcome to Normality was sort of ruined for me. By that I mean EVERYBODY ELSES BULLSHIT is a lot to deal with when you're trying to make YOUR OWN film.
I was really excited when I finally got to animate WtN for the first time and when I got to the computer and saw my first "final render shot", it was all so unreal and I finally felt like I had a purpose and all that good shit. So I tell my friends...
They get excited and EVERYBODY begs/tells me to put them in their movie, or to let them do a part in editing or whatever. This got me more excited, I thought "Hey these guys actually like it and want to be a part of it!".
But whenever it came time to actually work on it, everybody either flaked or tried to completely take over and become super queen divas. Sometimes people would come over saying they wanted to help with the film but then just fucked around for 3 hours wasting my time when I could have been animating. Others would get there and constantly shit-talk the animation and how I used 2D with stopmotion. When I first started WtN I would always be so excited to show my friends what new clip I had animated, and their constant nit-picking and overall lack of enthusiasm told me all the hype they were giving me was complete bullshit. 
It especially hurt when a couple people would say "This part isn't written right, the character shouldn't say this." or "Wouldn't it be better if-(insert bullshit here)".
I just think way too many people over step way too many boundaries with me, in both my real life and with the film. I wrote that script, I know it isn't the best shit the world has seen, but its me. Its mine and I worked my ass off to write it, why should it be changed?
Dash says it best when he says doing films with other people is like trying to herd cats. Its a crap responsibility, and where I tried to go big my first time around I got shit on every second of the way. Im generally a nice laid back guy so I shrug everybody off and don't even think about how disrespectful and full of shit most people are... until later. I let this shit bottle up and finally I snap and become super aggravated with the world and hide away in my little closet studio.
I suffer from severely stupid depression problems.
I never tell anyone cuz honestly, who cares? We all have depression problems. But it gets so bad and (my wife and two sons keep me from being an hero) I often find myself wondering "What would happen if I just jump out into traffic right now? How long til people noticed I was gone? Would the driver be more worried about me, or more worried about getting in trouble?"
Anyway... being fucked with when It comes to making my passion projects is a REALLY BIG depression trigger for me, and I came close to calling it quits on life several times within those past 2 years. Needless to say im not to eager to jump back on that train. I know its just mental shit I gotta work through but its still not something im really looking to do with arms wide open.
I think for now im just gonna keep the doors shut on my projects and just give the few people who give a damn a little visual log every month or so to show im still alive, other than that im just stickin to myself.